the good & the bad

this week went by so fast...went to second cup w/ lnp on tuesday. lots of girly girl talk...giggle, giggle, giggle. "why do you have to cry?!?!?" boyz just don't understand.

had my last day @ the conservatory on thurs...i can't believe i've been there for 6years. it was fun while it lasted...i felt like i made it my own place. i was pretty much running the whole place the way that i wanted, benefitting the students, parents and the staff. but over the past year it just got worse and worse...since my boss had a mid-life crisis at age 35!! things just fell apart and i tried so hard to keep things going...and they did for a while...but without a solid foundation, things start to crumble. i hate leaving off on such a bad note. i'm feeling so awful about leaving on bad terms but it's not my fault. i dedicated so much of my time, effort, heart...my life into the studio to be taken for granted. and it's not just affecting me, it's affecting all the staff (that's part of why 3 of us just quit:P). he owes me big time!

anyways, i'm taking a break from packing for CUBA!!! whoohoo! gotta head for the airport @ 4am for the 6:25am flight...anyway, i'm prolly overpacking, but i have a good size suitcase (thanx eileen!!!) and i can fill it if i want to:P i'd rather have a good selection of outfilts anyway, it's good to be prepared for all occasions...casual, beach/pool side, tours, dinners, clubbing!!! i'm such a princess. i'll miss you guys! text message me on my cell if you have a chance. i know i have to leave this world behind (eh, dartslinger), even for a week, but i still wanna know wha happenin' in the T-dot. stay safe all...see you in 8 days! muah;)

love isn't enough?!?

still tired this morning...*yawn*...my heartstings have been pulled and tied into knots over the past few weeks. it hurts seeing my friends hurt. i wish i could do something to make everything thing the way it was. but then again, is everyone truly happy? we all keep saying that things will work out for the best...but what the hell does that mean? shouldn't we be more pro-active and help the situation rather than waiting patiently for something to happen?

who turned out the lights?

happy friday all! hmmmm....what have i been doing lately? on tuesday i volunteered at shawneeki golf course for the kelsey's golf tourney w/ leanne, bethy & amanda. got a funky tan, thank goodness for tube tops! dindin @ kelsey's was free...mmm...steak! amaretto cran (my invention) is sooooo yummy:)

blackout in T.O. was sorta freaky...esp since it wasn't just T.O....it's all over ontario all the way to ny and miami...so crazy! ppl who rely on tv, cells, landline phones, internet would be sooooo lost...eh, lnp? had a wicked a$$ bbq dindin (after i finally figured out how to light the damn thing) w/ my fam and had some good conversation w/ dartslinger over the telephone about life. closing one door in our lives and opening another...

craaazy birthday shout-outs to: mah lil' sis LaUrA!!! happy birfday! see ya @ jake's!! and happy 19th birthday to my cuz LyLyBo! let's go somewhere and GET carded!!! ha ha ha...

weekend stuff

busy weekend...friday: worked all day, then had italian dindin and clubbing @ manhattan fuel w/ sammy and peeps for her 25th b-day! happy birthday "mommy"!! saturday: raced at Summer Sensation dragonboat regatta near Ontario Place. we, the wavecutters came in 9th over all and 1st in the C division finals...which is pretty good, i think. although our coach pointed out that several people need to be more fit in order to better help the team. hope he's not talking about me...at night rené & i hit the "Taste of the Danforth". we chowed down on pork & chicken souvlaki stix and yummy cheese pastries. it was kinda crowded for my liking, but i still enjoyed myself. it was refreshing to see the diversity of T.O. come together to celebrate something....especially food! mmmm...it was also nice to have a saturday night off to just chill and spend time together. sunday: taught piano in da morn, played 3rd base @ softball and then went to sarah's b-day BBQ. happy 21st bday buffy:) and then worked at good old kelsey's at night. monday: teaching, teaching & more teaching. had dindin w/ a.g. at night and had a good heart to heart conversation about stuff....good and bad...seems like a few ppl close to me are also dealing with crap in their lives...but at least we have each other to lean on. a.g., i really hope that things work out for the best, no matter what the outcome is. time can be our friend, and at the same it can be our worst enemy. always follow your heart.

burbur: can't wait to have cheesecake w/ you!!! 'specially @ J.D.'s w/ our pal seth;) i miss you. lots.

roller coaster ride

i keep trying not to worry, but it's so damn hard. everything's so up and down lately, so inconsistent, you know? i mean, i always try to look at the positive...cuz overall i'm usually a pretty happy camper, but lately things are just so...bleh, and i can't seem to focus on seeing the brighter side. i am dealing with the lousy situations one-by-one, but it just seems that as soon as one thing is ok...another crappy thing creeps up on me. grrrr...so frustrated. btw, thanks for being there for me and reminding me that things will be okay. [you know who you are;)]